~my Story~

my friendster is reaching 800 participants soon~ i feel like open album that shows my past...my history... when i look at others profile...they been showing how they look like since secondary school~ not to mention even primary school... well mine started from college life instead... I've been sharing how my past was to those who know me in person... as for they don't know...they somehow just put me as a guy-that-looks like a Girl... well been called as Ms...Xiao Jie like almost ev eryday~ haihz~just my hair is slidely longer then they have to categorize me~call me Miss~ yes was happy~ because of my versatility...don't ask me WHY...Ask god please... i was ashamed of my past as well proud cause i've overcome it... when i flip through my picture album... i wonder how can i ever survive that time? What is all that thing on my belly...lap...thigh...flapped arms... WHAT IS ALL THAT? MY GOD!!! but then i'm always happy...i never shattered a tears... in thos

the whole day was heading out here and there~ to different shopping centre... we went to Times Square 1st to do some payment etc... and also had lunch with one of the in charge person... his name is Wayne, well o well... we had this chat... about savings H = Helen (my aunt) W = Wayne H: ray.it's good to save money in case of any emergency... R:erm i would love to if there is no longer any nice clothes around... H: then Wayne tell this young man here that it's good to have some savings... W: Erm actually i don't do savings either... **Me and Helen was surpriese...** W: well what happend if i do when my bank still have zillions. H:what happend in case their is an emergency... W: Well, I just have to use my credit card then ~ LOL.LOL.LOL. i laugh like a looney~and think over again and again what he said... talk abot advance of human technology~ Then me and my aunt whine up there like 3 hours~ not to mention Starbucks again~ officially Sick with starbucks already~ to do some of

my auntie is always so kind and generous doing things that have no benefits~ well got 1 ada CONNECTION with the management... well this woman from a mall want us to help her touch up the exhibition she is doing now due to the current event management (others not the perfect WHITE EVENT management) Did a sucky job~and ask us to help her cover it~ well call us the COVERGroup...COVER THE SHIT in you~ oh-kay~ well me and my aunt are like explorers... don't know where the heck is Sg.Buloh~ we were like pray and cross our finger and hope everything are just nice and reach there safely~ wuwuwu~ and we manage to reach there safely after dealing with dreadful car jam~ and the staff from the company (the landscape company) that have no sense of direction nor a clear picture whats the exact location of their nursery~landscape~nursery dunno why just read from de card~ anyway~ it was so rural~ well remind me of SIBU all so greenish~ wuwuwu the fruitty ice~kam puah~wahliao~miss so baddddd... any

sheesh...talk about close call... well should give her a good and dramatic introduction... tala la la... it's my CLUMSIEST YET SAYANG ME de AUNTY...MRS.HELEN CHAI... WELL-OH-WELL HOW CAN THIS EVEN HAPPEND?! ok cut the drama... well was their at Hartmas follow my aunt to meet her client...well as usual i just go there and accompany her...then i just Starbucking over there...blogging ah~msning ah...enjoy my day... well there was some drama... there is these few people were snapping picture with there bazooka~ the model name raymond~keep yell and yell...make me look up numerous time untill im like... numb already... -.- then there was this cute lil baby opposite me in his granny arm~keep baby talking 2 me... ^^ it was like...SHUT UP LA!!! kidding nia ~haha so cute...i walk there and pad his lil head~ his a mix oh~malay with kadahzhan... i wonder why my aunt was taking so long... BUT i didnt message her... then she called... "ray...i totally forget about you...i almost leave witho

today woke up with a slide-ly lonely~ but then after scratching my hair...rubbing my eyes... i smile AUTOMATICALLY...O.o then i'm like "GET UP!! LET'S GO" this positive is so strong,i feel stress free suddenly...i try to emo but then i'm not feeling any... instead i felt so free...it's quite sometimes this feeling is not here...im ready to GO again... i want to hold a friend now to talk how happy i am now...what am i happy over...i have no idea~ just want to happy i guess...haha please god let this vibe stay here...it belongs in my heart...i need it...and also my friend~i need to lead them again...i want them back to me... i pray for them~bad luck just leave us alone... I'm ready for heavy task~ i have so many goal~need to archieve: 1)dance again with CYNTHIA 2)do something with my look 3)score my result in year 2 with flying colour 4)learn fashion from AVIS 5)improve workmanship by helping IVAN 6)BE A MULTI-TASK part timer 7)improve my english with help f

Chocolate Boy aka Brownie aka Jack aka C Jack aka Loo Sze Jack Johnathan aka John aka Johnny aka Sim Yang Well destiny~Well faith~ mission that need to be done~task that has to be complete~ Dream that we want to pursue~ lead us head to a different place for sure~ we will be apart but then~we will always know where to find each other~ there is always a place where we call HOME... come home to us...where we give you loves and cares~ no matter where you go~ so no worries~ Jack is now in Australia~Perth to pursue his dream John is now back to Kota Kinabalu -Sabah~to complete his Task~and take over his Responsibility as a Grown Up... Good Luck to you both~ Well~when is my turn then?

What i need and what i Don't need? I shall talk about don't need~ 1)jealousy~ People can't see me~because they are not meant to be here forever with me~ don't have to jealous over they can only see certain thing instead of myself... 2)Attention~I need some attention...I always has it~but when i lose it~i will be down in the canyon of hopeless...need to know when to turn on and off the attention~ 3)Crush down~never allow myself to crush down / broke down / because emo wont kill~as in these 2 can kill me... I need~ 1)Stronger~stronger then yesterday~haha~i need a day off so i can think what i should do~learn from my mistakes~ 2)Clean my heart~ask myself, what am i inside~what i need inside~ 3)Happy~i need to be happy again~laugh whatever sad or bad things off~

up coming everyday are pack with works and so on~ i love busy day~people say our brain, we only use 30% out of it~ but from i my case~ i made an exception~i used more then 30% when i'm free, imagination, problems or what so~will run out like a bunch of kids head for the canteen~and im the canteen~as you see~ i always think a lot~ definition of life~definition for me~raymond is ....yada yada~ im looking for a statement for myself~ im complicated~i thought im easy~but then~im not simple and easy~as i always put myself in~ i just need to regroup myself~but i broke down quite sometimes and im still looking ofr a solution for my problem~ im kinda lost~i need to find someone to group me up again~i want to go back to myself where i can be my happy self... sorry my friend~i made you worry~ give me more times~to feel secure again~in the mean time~im really insecure~ anyhow~life have to move on no matter deep inside of me were shattered into pieces... upcoming set up at maju junction~times s

the more i think** it's been sometimes~ im alone on my journey by myself... am suppose to get used to it! but the treasure box where i used to keep all my memories... seems to unlock by itself and they were released into my brain... they are all over me...im surrounded by them...and i was drown once again into the show... i realize i still miss my 1st eX and i know that is stupid~ most idiot things i had ever done... he is still the most beautiful memories i have ever had ... im speechless that i thought i no longer miss him~ im was wrong... i really do miss him... haha~i went up to the heaven down to the earth...search for him...his profile...so i can know how is he now... i found him... he is now in a relationship^^ with a woman...haha well~i did my job pretty good~ well is his decisions...im the light house well...once for him...haha to seek his way back home... i hold my tears so hard so no one will see it... it's getting cold...even though the sun almost burn everything to

my all time best best friend~soon will be on his way to his future...Perth,Australia~ continue his study overseas~MASSCOM... for like a year plus plus over there~ we were like sharing the same kindergarten...primary school...secondary school... we knew each other when we were in FORM 1~but we were in each other life like since forever~ faith i guess^^ i'm gonna miss him so much~*rub my tears off* my heart really hope he can stay... but~his future and dream~and so is my dream and future~will always head to different place~ because of that~ Well we know where to meet each other again~ in PARIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL much we will never forget or let go each other ~we promise^^ well as a fair-well dinner~we had it in JOGOYA... since he never been there before~ so i decide to treat him dinner over there... accomplish his desire of swallowing salmon~(mine TOO) oh god~ the salmon taste so nice >.< oh god~ OH MY GOD~ we had a lot

the royal family gathering on Monday~ after like decades we finally meet up yesterday~ at times square we had our lunch~ right after my half day work~ nothing much we do~ but we talk a lot and laugh a lot~ and SS a lot~ basically my face mussels are numb...due to over stretching and "working" haha so... well 3 hot stuffs wert~ A warm welcome to Ivan~ for joining us~LOL wei~ anywaY NICE TO MEET YOU^^ The Ivan...The Raymond...The Johnathan The Ivan...The Raymond...The Douglas Anyhow nice to meet you~and welcome you here~ to part of Raymond's Life

this weekend is the most busy yet entertaining one in my life~ had my sis overnight at my house on Saturday~ having this so called "slumber party" (which 2 jantan aje) *2 male only) we did facial~he thought me facial~i thought him lips treatment... and talk about persuasive~he know all the material or i should say chemical in the skincare products and their functions~ and he is so nice and lemme use all his products that cost heaven for me~ we chat everything~about each others future and so our pathetic loves life~ then Sunday we went to my mum's shop for breakfast~ then we head to pavillion AGAIN to buy my Clinique Anti-Blemish series Facial Care cost me RM290~ i would rather go to clothes man! if my skin dont have this shitte problem~ damn it~ so we met up with Johnathan~and head to Pavillion together~ we accompany johnathan for his lunch due to the sales i want to meet up is busy with another customer~ We went for KFC (john eating only) we chat chat whine whine~ thats

i was admitted Assunta a day a go, had difficulty breathing...chest pain~ my friend worry me so much~sms and accompany me the whole day~ i feel so happy that they were there for me~ as in the result, everypart of my body is normal~ just my heartbeat is a little SLOW~ oh well~peaceful~even my heart beat dugup~peacefully~LOL much soon i will be RIP~LOL (claireey~ dont smack me~) really~ my life is like a roller coaster~ always have a huge up down evey year~ i wasn't being supersticious...it's a calculation... i made a note~and i always have to pay to get something~ i have good luck at the beginning of the year...everything go according plan~ and im thank god for their blessing... now my luck just went down~ it is unbelivable...i did mad with the god a while~but then~i realize that I HAVE TO PAIN TO GET GAIN OVER SOMETHING... pay the bill for you dinner...example~ after delicous meal~is time for bill~ haha~ i get the whole reality of the world~ a cycle~that keep this world running

girls and boys~ boys and girls~ i always love to see girls win~ see girls kick butt~ see how girls hook up a guy and throw them away~ sometimes it might be a bit slutty and bitch~or so~ but then sometimes those dude are not meant to be pity~ they do wrong things more then girls~ to someone we can be as tame as a goat~ to tread i choose not to sit quite~i thought i can let people hurt me and just let them go ahead then im consider doing good~ BUT THEN someone inspire me~ she say be dumb to someone and be smart to someone else im agree~now your fight back maybe might be countinuos~ but at least this right back will be an alarm to them~ let them know~ you are not easy to mess with~ i always love the feeling wherepeople try to get me~ but then cannot get me~ after they thought they had the chance~ well these people are only flirty ass and people that gave me dick face~though that they are COOL and yea being playful is not your fault~stop give yourself execuse be a real MAN~ carry your re

my very first tag~had given to dear john-athan~ LOL much! ok lets get it started : - 1. What do you want the most now? My face~pimple all gone. Stay away!! As my skin is under protection of PSG. shushu *in case you dont know,PSG means Perfect Skin Group* 2.Who is the person you trust the most now? All the people i LOVE. 3.Are you in love? Too many~ lost count. 4.If you have a dream come true... To be the famous IA Designer and Fashion Design...rock both different industry~muahaha 5.Do you believe is seeing a r a i n b o w after a rain? According to Thomas Young (the very 1st 1 who gave this explanation in 1804).Rainbows are optical and meteorlogical phenomena that cause a spectrum of light to appear in the sky when the sun shines onto droplets of moisture in the Earth's atmosphere. They take the form of a multicoloured arc, with red on the outer part of the arch and violet on the inner section of the arch. More rarely, a secondary rainbow is seen, which is a second, fainter arc, o

well oh well~ one more thing to go~ haha~ this post is the 200 post that i archieve~ so~ "IT'S RAY'S SECRET CHAMBER 200 POSTS ANNIVERSARY!!!!!" YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH~ WAH WAH WAH WAH~ say goodbye to before say i to after~ well actually is say hi to the future say bye to the past~ well 200 post might not be as many as someone due to my interest of blogging is not rosing for past few years untill i step into college~ thanks claireey for inspiring me~ well was quite busy for the past 2 days~ task have to be done~ proposal yada yada~man~ so its all about busy lifestyle~ and i love it~ i love to see my desk stack up with piles of files and research labtop and PC on my desk 1 for design and another for proposal~ haha well found another 2 common things~ me and ivan~ LOL we both have the lips of angelina~ when we eat sth spicy~we will whine up with thick lips le~ and we both born on 6th~ just taht im may he is nov ooi ah stop copying me k~ im so sending you a law letter k it

proposal for shopping mall proposal visual for shopping mall~ this is what i can do for you~ this is what i can give to the company~ just 2 task? "sorry hun~ if that is what you have in mind~ i guess you can just march to your bed~ sleep and dream~" proposal ~ i have re-create a better proposal for 2 shopping centre~ about what sort of fair we can run in their shopping mall~ basically each mall we wish to run 3 major fair which is shopping , Christmas and also new year's fair~ and guess what our CNY next year is in Jan 26 O.O talk about so soon wei!! besides that~ within this week~ and next week~ i have to bloody make 6 different booth design~ wahaha~ my brain is now over heat~ @.@ well i like it~ cause i dont want to care other shit sometimes~ until its time bah? well enough my work~ well granny is ill again~ i wonder whats wrong~ im worry sick about her~ so is our whole family~ had discussion~ well still waiting for the report~ one of my colleague~ is a she~ her irrespo

tuesday morning rain oh rain oh rain~ spine chilling morning - sunburn afternoon - FREEZing night~ talk about weather is fooling people around~ they have 4 season every year~overseas well we have 3 different "season" (so call) in just a day~ in Malaysia stuck at office whole day dealing with design~ did Hartamas Design~ for Colour of Living fair thats coming soon~ well not as soon as the Home & Leisure fair is Cheras Leisure Mall~ yet another set up~ and I just cant have enough of it~love it^^ went lunch with my colleague ~ dua jantan ~ aje~ makan dekat office~ his name is RON~ he is a indian mix chinese and quit good looking la~buit he speak canoton in major~ and look like chinese also~ engaged merry soon luo~ well we talk alot~ he like Science and fiction kind of movies~ X-men~ Resident Evil yada yada~ he is around 24 so gap isnt that far so we talk alot like 8 poh hahahahaha~ i ate vege mee hon soup~ the soup is clear and alot of vege~ yummy yum yum haha^^ my type of

IVAN oh the copy dog~ blek~ its another beautiful monday~ (yea right) so far its ok la~ busy as always~ but i like busy~ can keep my time running~fast!! better to sit down on a chair~almost fall into sleep~ @.@ dreadful!!! i met another new friend~i mean MSN~ he is kinda creepin me out DUE TO we have too too too too too TOO MUCH in COMMON~spooky in another way!! ok ~ he is 19 im 20~ here different BUT : ~ we both are IAD student we both stay in Sri Petaling we both are Hakka that can't sPeak hakka we both are the Eldest we both Don't like our Dad we both have same hair problem~ we both curly hair when our hair is short!! ~.~ so we decide to let it long and straighten it~ yea WE BOTH DID THE SAME THING (O.O)" He was KBU student now Saito argh!!! and we both like TvXq Too~ he like Hero wherelse im U-Know nah^^ (mei someone wanna fight with you) his name is IVAN btw~ O.O scary right?? too much in common makes me wonder is it someone cloning me behind my back~ what can i say

it's another sunday where i have to be a nanny again la~ well another 1 is going down~ 4 more days or things to go!! Actually nothing much or special thing happen~ other then my sis cook too much macaroni already so basically out of that everything seems to be quite and peaceful... i clean my room realize how many hair was there on the floor~ and dusty~ i guess i have to becareful~ haihz~ actually i did something, i was standing by the window side and enjoy the warm and gentle breeze blow onto my face...take a breath and look out~ the sun wasnt that blazzing and cruel~ try to burn everything to ashes~instead try to make the world just a bit warmer~ so i clean my room and try to twist my butt like PCD know what~ my butt is damn flexible twisting like tornado~ WOW too much~ (claire dont say sth bad k) can se it coming ahaha!!!!

i've got a confession~ i dump my blog for the past 2 days~ so i have to catch up a bit now~ >.< so well quite some changes i gon through~ im flying solo again~ but this time~ im doing it so good untill im kinda wonder where the heck my courage came from~ i thought i'll be lost~ crying my noses~ screaming for help~ shoulting like a lunatic~ break down on my knee~ but then again i never did that~ cause i knew it'll happend~ and i prepared myself for this impact~ just dissapointed~ well thats un-avoid-able so for the people who know im in a relationship~ is now relationship FREE la^^ walking proud~ really!! when you realize you change you'll feel happy and excited~ looking forward what you will have infront~ ahead of you you won't scared anymore~ it's a breakthrough~proves that you had grown up^^ well i bought a pants from SEED already its the summer collection oh~ and the sales say im the 1st one that bought it~ *duh fashion diva we are talking about hello*

down~down~down~ 1day is down~ 6 more days to go~then~ went to archidex08 yesterday~ just like old times products products and more products~ this time i see nothing much inspiring work~ most of the work are much like "recycle"~ its like the idea is lopping again and again~ hunter douglas ( 1 of the exhibitor ) they produce tiles, walling, and surface graphic~ they are cool~ they have a lot of nice tiles~ i went look around~ basically i have not interest towards the material of the structure~ nor to the technology to help you build a building~ cause im not interested~ LOL So i just LSLS a while then i head to another hall that exhibit material (again) but with a space~ so more interesting~ for interior designer~ ^^v then sanitory ah~ bath tub and toilet bowl that can put flower~hahaha~ all nice de design~really have to make myself THINK OUT OF THE BOX!! >.< TiNG FUNG AND CLaIRE~ i belive we can form a freat team^^ faithful in you guys^^