**my liFe**

i was admitted Assunta a day a go, had difficulty breathing...chest pain~ my friend worry me so much~sms and accompany me the whole day~ i feel so happy that they were there for me~ as in the result, everypart of my body is normal~ just my heartbeat is a little SLOW~ oh well~peaceful~even my heart beat dugup~peacefully~LOL much soon i will be RIP~LOL (claireey~ dont smack me~) really~ my life is like a roller coaster~ always have a huge up down evey year~ i wasn't being supersticious...it's a calculation... i made a note~and i always have to pay to get something~ i have good luck at the beginning of the year...everything go according plan~ and im thank god for their blessing... now my luck just went down~ it is unbelivable...i did mad with the god a while~but then~i realize that I HAVE TO PAIN TO GET GAIN OVER SOMETHING... pay the bill for you dinner...example~ after delicous meal~is time for bill~ haha~ i get the whole reality of the world~ a cycle~that keep this world running~ well listening to emotion by destiny child~ so touch~ in to my heart...mind.. and soul~ really crying bay~ i cry again~but im still smiling~ wonder is i was crazy~ just too much bad things happend~ im just lost... i hate im lost~ im even worst then my friend when im lost~ when im lost it indicates im stuck~LAG~ i realize i aint that generous nor that good~ and yet im trying to be THAT GOOD~ and forced myself to the dead end~ i guess im just a normal person~that try to make IT BIG hahahaha~ having big project coming up~am so PROUD~haha^^ life~oh life~