~my Story~

well my friend came and gone felt quite akward when i share room with another dude, when i normally sleep alone. but then when he left, i felt my room seems to be a lil too quite already... anyhow bye my friend, there will be a chance to see you again... I hope^^ feel like i learn a lot of thing these few days. Things you thought you can control were actually went out of control already~ It's just that i never dare to face it...thats why i actually like COVERGIRL(saying with smiley face and the smile is like sunshine) yea to cover the shit underneath~ -.- oh well~ i also thought im good at it~playing with fire wont get burn~even knife i never get cut~ somehow im seriously get myself injured~althought i COVER it up Just nice~ but then the scar i guess its hard to cover up then~

happy birthday darling~ wish ya all de best wishes come true be a hotty in no time look fab get rich a loyal handsome taller then you rich and caring and also with bright smile like your XIAH (replace-him) boyfriend before you know it~ erm i guess i gave you all the best alreayd i guess so again~ otahnjohbi omedetoh gozaimasu~

Boys call you sexy (What's up, sexy) And you don’t care what they say See, every time you turn around They scream your name Now I've got a confession When I was young I wanted attention And I promised myself that I’d do anything Anything at all for them to notice me But I ain't complaining We all wanna be famous So go ahead and say what you wanna say You know what it's like to be nameless Want them to know what your name is 'Cause see when I was younger I would say When I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star I wanna be in movies When I grow up I wanna see the world Drive nice cars I wanna have groupies When I grow up Be on TV People know me Be on magazines When I grow up Fresh and clean Number one chick when I step out on the scene But be careful what you wish for 'Cause you just might get it But you just might get it But You just might get it They used to tell me I was silly Until I popped up on the TV I always wanted to be a superstar And knew that

this dude in real person look a bit like JJ woh~ you guys think? from these sticker picture~ haha he is vincent~^^ my new friend not so new just that just meet~ he is a sad story~ man this is the 1st time he take sticker pic~ me gosh!!! anyhow again back to john and papan and i 1st met~ we visited to many famous place in KL~ but this time i personally skip~ KL Tower~ i puke blood if i actually go back there again~ i've been to the tower like almost 10 times edi for interview and side visit~ LOLz at night i brought him to mid valley~ to buy his clothes~ well he damn gila photo de~ keep snapping pic when try out the outfit~LOLz well here you go vincent~ Best friend forever yo~

** a liTTle girl...&...a Tissue** its a sunny day, blazing sun shine that can kill uncountable cells on your skin~ somehow its quite windy~ soon my love will return to the place where he belongs~ it'll be a distance away~ by the time next sun will be rise again after tonight~ i work half day today to meet up with him again for this last time~ (well for now wt tears in my eye) KLCC we meet up~ he is sick, but he came out instead of cancel the date, to fulfilled his promises to me~i was so happy~ we went for lunch after that we went seeking books in KINNOKUNIYA, we chat like there is no tomorrow~ (there is tomorrow just it'll taste different then) we flip through the books reading and share each point and info we found to share~ about skincare we both shared~after that we went to a place sit down and had a drink chit chatting again~ he love looking at the people that pass by~ so am i^^ we were keep on criticizing on the people especially a malay dude with pink hair eye line m

**my Work** this is my work~proposal for HaRI raya de neh~ it's a not completed version~ soon it shall come with graphic design and deco (which i already have in mind now) PS right after it gets approve la not to mention~LOLz basically the concept basically i have no concept haha~ just makesure it does represent MALAY and Hari Raya that would be enough~ was quite heachache luo~squeezing my brain so hard for a thing i can use~ to get inspired~ AT LAST i saw KEtupat~ actually i say ketupat when i glance through de web~ just dunno how to convert it~O.O soon i step out from my seats~ i get to doodle it out~ in my office cafeteria~haha and now you have it~ A conTEMporaRY yet traditional HARI RAYA KEtupAT booth~

**walk...** look into my monitor~i feel nothing see nothing but blank~ emptiness drown my soul~ im such twit~ my emotion rise and sank in a couple of seconds~ and thats really pain in the ass~ i wish i can be more carefree~ as in dont bother keeping promises~ or trust~ anyone over what we had promises~cause those words can be so sweet once but yet bitter like dont know how to describe when it was been broken~ i guess everything once change or destroyed ... feeling and taste definitely went wrong~ no doubt at all~ there is no insurance that things will remain without changing~ maybe not fully change yet~ something will be different for sure~ just the things that matters is when it change~ it still remain the facts that keep you and him or her or it bond~ that is hope to be preserve at all cost~ i refer to relationship~friendship~partnership~ whatever it have to do with the feelings~ i guess it is~ someone are just meant to walk by and say hi~ then they will leave with or without saying

**crave, craving, craved** (triple "C" much~) dont know where the heck it came from~ dont know why it it will come to me~ dont know when it gets into me~ Dont know DOnt know DONt know DONT know DONT Know DONT KNow DONT KNOw DONT KNOW " so HOW? do you expect me, eat whatever i need, cause my fat will grows around and make me look freaking ugly ~ " *edited from NO AIR by jordin Sparks and Chirs BrOwn" suddenly, im craving for: 1) cookies 2) ice cream tiramissYou from Cornetto 3) ice cream RUM raisin from Haagen Dazzs 4) sweet soup 5) aunty Ann 6) cake...chocolate indulgence from Secret Recipe 7) Frappucino Mocha from starbucks 8) caraMel maCChiatto from starbucks 9) sandwich from Subway (more olive) 10) fried Food like tempura from Shihlin 11) Donut from Big APPLe all those above is blacklisted almost 3 years for me and i band myself from eating it~ and DAMN it !! they are coming to me at one strike!!! its only happend in the middle of the night~ which it hap

**proverb of the day** "don't just know how to breed, but don't know how to teach" TO ALL MY FRIENDS TO ALL THE PEOPLE THAT READ MY BLOG PLEASE...TAKE THIS SERIOUS...( i guess the people who read my blog already have the standard ) any how PLEASE spread this proverb to all your friends and family which is important to you tell them do it for the SAKE of your quality of your family can able to preserve untill the end of the world~ not only in our country~ the worlds is getting worst day by day because people nowadays ONLY KNOW HOW TO BREED BUT DON'T KNOW HOW TO TEACH these people creating new generation with ultra super low quality~ rubbish~useless~crap~slut~shit face cock bastard~moron~bloody hell no brain~ a pot of dirt~ ass clown~ rotten shit~ (for the people with quality you will know what am i dealing with) before i explain why am i so vulgar~ well let me tell you what~! people nowadays came with SHITTY ATTITUDE people nowadays came with OVERLOADED SELF-FISH

**not YET~** its another 14th~ it 14th of june~ so fast half of 2008 is gone...2008 is now walking towards 2009~ what is waiting infront of us~ what we expect infront~ what we wish to be in the future? seems like there isnt much time to waste~decision have to be made~ as our duty is calling~ changes have to be accepted if it's a fact that couldn't be change~ i heard an advice from my friend~ make your choice~ after that makesure you won't regret~ decision seems to be a little heavy after that~ but then it's true~ decison is you to made~ your choice~ johnathan return to Kota Kinabalu already le...all the best for him~ is my wish for him~ our friendship douglas, johnathan and me~ our friendship make alot of people jealous~ that how can we be so close~ well i guess we are lucky? happy is there and yet as well unhappy moments~ i guess the unhappy is always where we have to say goodbye~ doing things that will set us apart~somehow this is duty of ours that we can skip or refu

**both** i've been sharing a feeling~ can say what i saw and learn from my surrounding~ sharing with my friends~ everyone i know~ about being a human must be multi-task... i know my dream, i know my task, i know what is my previlege and what is not~ i like both architecture and fashion... i enjoy overwhelming design of an architecture, the space that will make people mesmerize, a place that people will die to see and been~ i love space that can give me a feeling of AMAZING... i enjoy creativity and chamellion like characteristic of fashion industry, its like dream come true~ i love clothes, photoshooting~ i like to see what can the photographer can shoot and get from the model or people... basically im a person that is always live in the imaginary world~ i dream alot~ in my dream i create a world that is so perfect... i wish to do this and "create" and "design" them accroding to my will... so i actually remove the flaw and make it almost too perfect~ i like alot

**Achitecture** prelude of dream~

**Fashion Industry** prelude of dream~

**SeTuP** 11th June~ well white event management had a setup in Times Square~ its a shopping fair~ i love busy day~ although its darn tiring~ i start working at 830am untill 530pm then i return home and take a bath and dinner beofre i head to times square... but before that i have to compleete 2 design which is a handphone booth and small promotion counter for notebook~ and i completed within 1 and a half hour~ calculating the measurement...converting the ft to cm~yada yada~ oh well~ im like half dead~ but i feel so happy becasue i fully used every second in my life~ then around 830pm me and my aunt went all the wya to IKEA and get a freaking scary heavy diplay shelves~ thanks to the workers there~we manage to move it~its glass~ and the galss is so darn scary heavy~ the staff even say if i carry this all by myself~ he would have brooke his back bone~ so after that WE FLY to times square with in 30minutes~ we start our setup at approximately 1030pm~ well my job is to be supervise the w

**shAll We daNce?** watching my MSID12 performance~ watched my performance in secondary school~ all those glorious moment seems like fading away~ i miss standing on the stage~ i miss dancing with a bunch of friends~ i miss my best friend in secondary school~ i miss all those moments we share~ the biggest event / perfomance / competition~ was happend in my secondary school~ when im in Form 2... chinese culture perfomance night~ a competition~ compete with another school to get the performance chances~and there is like more then 20 school at the time~ so many talented people can split and do stunts that we cant do~ we are the flag dancer~ we dance with flag (its not Malaysia flag) its DIY punya~ guys hold de yellow flag~ gals hold the red flag~ we earn money for our costume making~ and what so~ basically we have no fund or support by school~we are all by ourself with the chinese teacher~ we were so piss~ as we are doing it for the school and yet we are not appreciated~ we have bruses al

**AYUMI HAMASAKI COUUNTDOWN LIVE 2007 - 2008** ayumi hamasaki COUNTDOWN LIVE 2007-2008 Anniversary DVD Release Date: 06.18.2008 Price: ¥4,800 Tracklisting:00. starting over 01. talkin' 2 myself 02. STEP you 03. Ladies Night 04. fated 05. Together When... 06. decision 07. SURREAL 08. Bold & Delicious 09. RAINBOW 10. evolution 11. Boys & Girls 12. glitter (encore) 13. untitled ~for her~ 14. Sotsugyou syashin 15. + 16. Humming 7/4 17. MY ALL Tenth anniversary countdown live DVD release from Ayumi Hamasaki includes footage of her New Year's 2007-2008 performance at the National Yoyogi Kyogiba Daiichi Taiikukan. Performing in front of nearly 12,000 fans, Ayumi sings for the first time tracks like "Sotsugyo Shashin (Graduation Photograph)," "Together When . . ." and "untitled -for her-" off of Ayumi's latest "GUILTY" album on the way to her final track "RAINBOW" and this year's glorious countdown. This

**EVERY ONE start working edi~** LOL oh LOL~ everyone start working~ we hate working~ i hate working~i work for the sake OF MONEY~ to spend~ me wnat buy what? this is the list~ 1) facial care products a set with a price of RM183++ 2) body scrub with the price of RM128 O.O 3) ayumi hamasaki coutdown live 2007-2008 RM100++ 4) short pants from SEED RM109 with 20% discount which is RM87.20 5) erm~ no more and pay back RM256 for the air ticket to SIBU to ting FUNG so basically after all these all my money will be frozen~ untill 2009 CNY only then buy clothes i hate holidaying around this period cause the money sure i will use one ~mostly cant last till end of 2008 so i let my mom keep it for me~aiksya~ oh well~ claireeeey all the best for ya work ya~ dont curi curi pintch the little cute girls face ya~ or please remember to SMILE~ you know you have a fierce face so SMILE~ Ting Fung work also~ and called me chit chatting to chase away his bored~ well i hate working now cause we will be work

**reAlity cHeck** working is learning~ not from the book nor from the lecturer~ but the thing you see and the people surrounding you~ is not the same when you are still in school or college~ real life is getting tough~ we thought study and finish designing work is tough~ undeniable it is for us now~ when we really working~ it will turn out to be "was hard" stay alive in this world is harder you can imagine~ everythings is upgrading, price for our daily goods reach new height~ everything is getting higher and higher cant even imagine whats the situation turn our to be when its our time stepping out under the shade's of college and our parents... petrol, rice most imporatant thing in human life is now reach another peak~ everyone is screaming and searching for way out~ for the people that is still slowly dragging behind~ unfortunately~ you are disqualify from the game as the chances already taken by other people... like it or dont like it~ somehow all you can do its just ac

**cry** people cry when they have reach te limit, they can no longer hide their emotion, or hide their feeling of broken heart~ there is many reason people cry~ just the meaning of the tears... happy~ or sad~ and who are they cry for~ i feel so sad~ and cry for my friends these couple of day~ i felt so small myself~ really small~ i have no power nor strengh to help them in need... my friends most of them come to a dead end~ and lost them selves~ i cant accept the changes they made~ cause i never thought i will happend like this~ someone quit study due to the result is not good enough to move on to another level... i wish its not true~ there must be another way~ someone realize they choose the wrong path and give up trying~ and give up themselves i wish to cheer them up and walk together with them out of this~ somehow they still cant make it through~ i wonder~why~ im feeling lucky as i can survive and get a move on~ but then when i saw my friend struggle i wish i have the power of the w