**on my chest...**

... lie frustration...

but regardless how it is but im still doing fine like a bitch...

im my own boss...

anyhow c3 is near and we are doing great with the preparation... this month is fully perfecting the stunts and move...

and i have no problem dealing with it...

i was kinda emo through out the day but what the heck im all fine now after good sweat!

**sEpangGold Coast**

someday in April~

nah~

just this Wednesday~ 11th April 2012

the woman we have Claire Chan...Lydia...Jasmine...ManYee and Zhixuan

the dudes we have Johnathan...Ash...YeowLoong and mySelf...

and my lil sister too...

we visited to SepangGoldCoast~

we literally picnic and played over there...DIDNT GO IN TO THE WATER

cause apparently when we reached the place its low tide already...

so the sea water is like a zillion miles away from the shore...

i need to run also wont be able to reach luo...

i might even gonna get suck into the mutt~

meow...

but what the heck...

i get some major sunburn much!! disaster 101!!

i hope milk will help me out somehow~!!

now i cant do milk bath~my skin in a state where its considered as injured...

thus i have to not touch it liaow....

its some random outing to actually chase back 

 

**whatever it is**

im still standing tall...

finally feel like writing a new post...

it has been a while... 

recently BULLETS ALL-STAR did a great show for Watsons New Launch in Mid Valley

i have always been dreaming to be able to perform in malls...GREAT MALLS...

due to C3 we perform in 1utama NOT BAD

now we have Mid Valley checked...

seriously you will never know what is awaiting you ahead...

but nevertheless you should have a plan on your own

at least you wont feel lost when everything quiet down

i felt like i've not been supportive to certain friends of mine recently

cause im quite bond to my cheer team

as if im revolting around it and i felt like i miss them oh so much 

when they are not around

whatever fun things came across my mind

i actually think of them

but than again i have many good friends and best friends around me

and they are still my priority

and i guess i'm all complete but just a lil more to make it perfect...

a job...

im scared...

why am i so afraid to face it...

what should i do now...

every time i have to ran into technical problem with my laptop and i have no idea

who to go to at times...

but what the heck

i think something went wrong in me...

i fall in love with someone...

and 1st time i never felt like having sex with him...just wanna be with him...

thats all

one of my friend came across my mind...

he did the same things too...

now im as weird as him now...

haha

C3 announced that it will take place somewhere in june 23 & 24

do come and support if you are free...

when you are free many thing comes out from your head eventually!

anyhow shall get things done now... toodles

^.^

**hatred**

those hatred that plant into my heart for so many years...

i thought i can banished them...

but i was wrong...

it was just hidden away by my strong will...

but it's collapsing as years gone by...

without me knowing...

i never want a person die before...

but when i wanted that to happened to somebody...

i can't believe that he is the person though last time i said that this sorta people is better dead...

maybe you will say im being shallow

whatever

i will repay you in a way that you can never imagine...

a way that you will regret for the rest of your life...

listening to Ayumi's new album song...

realize she tried a lot whole new aria..and music direction is like so magically a lot of style...

a few song caught attention Eyes,Smoke,Magic is so Burlesque...

but her English she needs to work extra hard to shook off those Japanese Accent cause

MY AH QUEEN IT'S A BIT ANNOYING...

but still love you 101

i will gambateh de la!!!

and than the performance / dance clinic is kinda good too

AWESOME JOB FOR THE GIRLS...

claire tan...christine Ling...angEL...JoLene...

the BOYS

KengXin and Johnathan TeO

shall post the viDeo when i get the video FroM JohNathan~

oh

**1st touch in March**

 

my new haircut would be similar to this pixie cut done by

ASHLEY SIMPSON

not the color though 

haha 

 

ayumi hamasaki is releasing her 13th album on 21st March

PARTY QUEEN

damn!

**chasing down pavements of life with you**

A CLASS SINGER with INSPIRING SONGS AND ARIA - ADELE~

can made you think a lot about your past and present and even your future at times...

i hate chasing those uncertainty in my future...

i love and hate chasing those what happened...

i hate not knowing what can i do now...

A CLASS SINGER with LOVELY SONGS AND STORY - AYUMI HAMASAKI

made you appreciate everyone that occurs to your heart and exist in you heart

with warmth and memories...

i hate that i have to love you when i know i shouldn't...

i love and hate those moments we share was so fine and sweet...

i hate for not be able to see you everyday...

but yet i love the way you don't know that you are so beautiful to me...

A CLASS MOVIE with DIFFERENT PEOPLE DIFFERENT LIFE BUT UNDER THE SAME MOMENT- VALENTINES DAY

a movie that came out last year but on air this year in HBO...

i hate to watch it alone

i love and hate those sweet moment that trigger my memories

i i hate not to be able to share this movie with you along...

but yet i manage to watch NEW YEARS EVE with you that day...

**wind in the air**

my first post in Feb~

it has been a while 

yesterday is really a long time sweet from the very last time i felt warmth from another person

most important of all it's something i cherish for sometimes...

we (bullets) went roller blade last night at Subang Avenue...

that's literally a dead mall cause really isnt much over there but they have quite roller blading spot there if you ask me~Disco Roller Blading is something new haha especially for noob like me...

1st thing 1st

i heard a lot of people saying that how not fair the world has gone

as all the cute handsome guys mostly 80 percent is gay

but straight guys rarely looks hotter than them

well true cause we know how to dress to impress behave to impress

but than again eventhough thats whats going on but eventually all those honest kind responsible guys stay over there where you can blossom to a happy ending with

that's why i felt way secure hang out with the straight guys at time as there is no comparison between me and them and i have to compare to many in my kind that's why i hate going to gay club at times not only i felt timid but at the same time dont like the feeling where you have to behave and act up all~

i will always crush for straight guys cause they have more sense of humor and treat you better than the other side as they have hidden agenda behind every shits

curse me cause im a bloody hell a woman spirit trap in a dudes body~

maybe this is something stupid to rant about but all i can say im jealous that im not that person that will be able to blossom to a happy ending with...

at least till than i would enjoy this moment somehow...

he wore the shirt i gave him and looks good on him~he is skinny but have tone arms and Y shape figure that sleeve-less show off his arm so nice (hehe)

it was my first time in roller blade

after i wore my shoes he came over and help me grab my hand and he teach me 

he asked me to stand straight while he slide~i hold to his hand tight and i look at him leading me that sudden i felt nothing is sweeter than that and i blushed and im like those lil girl heart beating like dont know whose business like that  >.<

even the air taste sweet 

i can some how imprint that image in my head and i think i will draw a pic somehow~

hmph~

after that we went to yamcha suddenly he said he call me pohpoh needa bring across the street haha he hold my hand again~i know we are just playing but dumbo like him sure dunno what it means to me~

haha~since relationships is not prior for me now...

just keep it this way until than?