~my Story~

  unable to online gave you no advantage in life can't blog hen you wanted to share some issue can't check a shit can't live a life XIENZ! but anyhow my mom off for 2 weeks cause she is moving her business to Puncak Jalil  so she gets a 2 weeks off so we went here and there the above is the 2 princesses posing at the garden~ my sister fall in love with the fountain  at the same night ZHIXUAN RAFE & I  had a small gathering @ La Bodega a Spanish restaurant located in Pavilion  had a great time catching yup with rafe and our life  so yesterday was our training so my new pet brother Jeremiah also from my team Bullets  made salad at home and he decide to treat me cause i fetch him here and there lolz taste good bro so wanna share this 2 songs~hope you'll like it as much as i do~   love you like a love song by SELENA GOMEZ   还是要幸福 by HEBE

HIMYM SEASON 5~ currently catching up like the speed of light reach episode 15~ where TED mosby have this theory saying when you prom-ted by a picture or a duck~if you like it you will see duck and if you see rabbit is what you hate~ totally outrageous theory but i know what is the big picture they try to paint~at least that's what i think it is... when you find something you like might not be what you love what you love might not be what you like... because it is always against our will and our normal perception on things that's why love is so pain to hold yet so sweet to have... if this is what you find...maybe it's a DUCK!  haha what i mean is what you love my friend told me a book "Secret" call me DUMB but i really have no idea what is it about they say is something to do with the law of attraction i have to tell you i have no idea what is that all about...ZzZzzzzZZ just had a last minute movie plan with Johnathan~ at MID V

have you ever felt that you're lost in this world and you can barely find your own feet and stand on it again?  have you ever felt that you have no clue at all with what you want and if you can ever find out what exactly you want? have you ever felt that part or you is lost and can never be found？ i'm all the above mentioned~ lately i look back at things i can overcome not so glory but never seems to be too bad i'm not at shallow but just a little wash off intro you all this song   saw these 2 pics and i wish soon enough i can have this moment soon those hug those moment is it too much to ask from this world? haha  i guess for now it's fated to be like this i guess

new layout new Cbox it's a brand new start well 5th guy this year i have a crush but ended up they found someone else funny thing wou;d be most of them i don't even get a chance to meet this is RIDICULOUS what have i done wrong? who to blame who to toss my sadness to? i hate myself for being so generous at times, no matter how disappointing myself towards it i'm still there giving warmest regards and wishes  i'm not fake just hard to be sincere as i thought you were the one~ lesson learned~never have a crush on anyone for no good reason~ if i can kill~i wish to kill myself~ if i can start all over again~i wish to press restart~ i know it's fated~ no matter how i resist~ i know~ i'm a human merely have any power to resist or against the will of the so call "law of attraction" like a fish wash off shore and gasping for air~ getting harder~

...one for me thought the time has come, and you are the one, sadly, i was wrong, i guess it's another joke from heaven i guess, well 4th one for this year, my friend said that i enclosed myself too much... am I? I hang out with straight guys more than my gay friends, I felt like i cannot be able to talk to one or even to seduce one like i used to be, i felt so insecure about myself and that really beats me, why am i keep playing the victim card OH GOD!!! why can't i be strong and bold for once and do something! why can't i just stand and shout out loud to someone i love or interested for a lil hang out! why am i such a coward? scared of this scared of that!!! great~ forget it~ just let it go

After years of searching I finally found the favorite movie of my life… TITANIC How many times have I cried for this movie, technically… I’ve lost count if you ask me precisely.. The moral of the story is so truthful and undeniable… So many years have pass, I can still remember every single detail of the movie Except the naked part…cause my eye was block by my uncle’s hand because it was kind of too much for kids… DUH I used to have the titanic soundtrack too… you can see how much I love this movie Even diary book also is TITANIC COVER… But funny…when I watch this movie…I can only think of you… Never anyone else…this is utterly funny I had imagined you and me in the movie and that’s funny some how…. Jack and Rose… Authentic name yet so lovable… She said: “a woman’s heart is a deep ocean secret…” I can never deny that claim… But also can prove when a woman love a person, she will