**changes**

new layout
new Cbox
it's a brand new start

well 5th guy this year i have a crush but ended up they found someone else

funny thing wou;d be most of them i don't even get a chance to meet

this is RIDICULOUS

what have i done wrong?

who to blame who to toss my sadness to?

i hate myself for being so generous at times,

no matter how disappointing myself towards it

i'm still there giving warmest regards and wishes 

i'm not fake just hard to be sincere as i thought you were the one~

lesson learned~never have a crush on anyone for no good reason~

if i can kill~i wish to kill myself~

if i can start all over again~i wish to press restart~

i know it's fated~

no matter how i resist~

i know~

i'm a human merely have any power to resist or against the will of the so call "law of attraction"

like a fish wash off shore and gasping for air~

getting harder~