~my Story~

catchy phrase in the song "why don't you let me love you?" my colleague is playing those "oldies goodies at 1990s" remind me how much i love this song when i was in like Standard 3 or 4 i guess after today i will be jobless wow i can't believe i just said that LOL well at least im not quitting my job as : ~ a brother a cheerleader a designer a son a friend a lover (currently still S&A) LOL NOBODY WANTS TO CRY wow emo siaow (Claire CCSY catch phrase) went to TungShin Hospital yesterday Johnathan SimYang admitted to hospital due to high fever and over exhaustion... he is getting Skinnier as if im not talking to John anymore more like talking to his Skeleton CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW SKINNY HE WAS YES DAMN SKINNY  PLEASE GOD help him recover as soon as possible since he so much  faithful in you...

when you hear me saying my heart feels like yogurt... i never mean it literally that it looks like one... it's just my heart filled with that taste... sweet and yet sour... those flavor is so loveable yet so hating it... standing in between is always my walk... i guess i can never pick a side... even pick also i will have a hard time thinking one... happy is sweet and sadness is the sourness... knowing too much can be a burden... same goes to power...the stronger you are the heavier your burden will be... this is the way thing goes around... need not to be surprise that if one day you will wind up doing doing doing woke up you already did these many... hold hand... something i have not feel for quite sometime... thank you for that one moment i hold yours and feel the warmth from one side to mine... silly~ you will never know...how much i appreciate those moment because it will always have it in me... had a great time last night c

GD & TOP 4MINUTE FT . ISLAND PARK JUNG MIN UKISS V. SYEUNG RI TEEN TOP KOREANWAVEFESTIVAL2011 OHMYGOD I'M OH SO HAPPY FASCINATED WITH THEIR TALENT AND HANDSOME FACE LOVE & LOVE but i know they did something with their face cause can rarely have such perfect face ENJOYED WITH DEAR MANYEE . DEAR CLAIREEY. DEAR CHIARA DEAR OOI AND LOONGLOONG utterly love the performances im still indulge with PARKJUNGMIN's songs and face and his butt act during the concert totally MESMERIZING AH!!

PAPI - JENNIFER LOPEZ just found the song this noon and i'm rocking my body and wish i can dance with my papi haha my skin returns to its original glow before  and i totally realize that beneath the sky there wont be any ugly people but lazy people and lazy won't get you near anywhere and this totally show me so it paid off cause people saw the results!!!  YEAH even slim down already my friends said... he said last time he saw me  i gone bigger and i know right!!!!!! so now everyday i do yoga and dance except Monday and Thursday cheer practise subsequent days i will do milk bath - GoodDay subsequent days i will do hydration mask from SkinFood - ALOE VERA everyday i will wash my face with Quacker Oats~ approve my skins a lot! i totally walking there!! to be fair  WAHAHA im broke T.T COUNTDOWN KOREAN WAVE CONCERT 2011  3 DAYS MORE!! YEAH! MS.SAM . MS.CLAIRE . MR.OOI .

recently i was hunting for this song widely played in SALOON...BOUTIQUE... and  RADIO somehow (-.-) her voice sounds like Rihanna so i thought it was her but  AT THE VERY LAST she was a ROMANIAN SINGER and it falls into the house music category and i have never really look into HOUSE music and now I've found a new love from it her name is Alexandra Stan maybe she had it going on for quite a while but she really hit it this time cause im addicted to the beat the song is awesome beyond mention Mr.Saxobeat is my favorite out of few of her works such as LOLLIPOP AND A.S.A.P and another Romanian singer name Elena - Disco Romancing apparently Romanian are kinda awesome with house music~ and truly am indulge with their song sadly i cant embed Mr.Sexobeat youtube here but do go look for it the Mtv might not have that sorta chemical like the song but yet the song will make you move like a Freak~

 I LOVED YOU TONIGHT ironic / epic joke of the year or a life time  when you plan to quit your job you see results and customer comes back and demand you to do his / her job what should i tell this customer that I've quit? THINK about that later for now im still working here it's better of i just be a good designer and do my job so the one who pick up my job have less worries and problems i manage to have good order  i'm glad but yet not enough to satisfy what i want to do and become narrow place and enough for someone who have big desire ELLEH~ anyhow clean up my place for sure and clean up my colleagues space and i gave her  my space~i helped her organized those files nicely arrange those material easier for her reach  i'm kind right? AWESOME LAH~ miss being in love whenever i look at other people but i would happen to think again those bad moments of it at times me myself wondering the same old stuff about what

designer and much like a thinker they always think about stuff design...idea...concept those things derive from the designer's heart and soul, life and undergoing, reality or dream and channel back in return to user so they can feel the same way the designer feel about their life i cleaned up my cabinet and storage today  take back those files... handbook and belongings... a moment rush into my heart and i felt sad about it how many times do i need to walk in and out at a place before i finally reach my place how many times do i need to be happy and sad getting and quitting a job before i finally reach my place today was kinda blue cause the practice canceled today the only moment where i can no need to think about stuff and be free and wild doing things like a kid should do was CANCELED AKA TAKEN AWAY also the moment to see that somebody is gone~ and finally i know how to draw a line for my blog~ pathetic 101 for someone blogged

i want to go club again... this time i wanna get drunk... BUT i can't cause my mom will squeeze the last drop of me until i wake up... not like in Langkawi just bring down those last fence and go nuts... technically im quitting my job soon... as i couldn't take those numbers anymore... i would love to do sales... but not kitchen... Kitchen Designer is just a name but actual meaning behind just a sales person not a designer... why would i want to be a sales designer... at least im selling my design and concept... NOT JUST PRODUCT! i would more into it... jack knows me well... he knows i will only pay 100% attention to what i love and like to do... never something i hated... i try to put up with the job scope... but i'm not doing what i want and it kills my desire to move forward... so i decide to walk out of here... with pride... at least im touched when i leave... my colleague felt upset with it... a few of

bullets is back... training on Monday was awesome...coach teach us back hand spring guess what... I DID IT! though with help~BUT I DID IT WITHOUT ANY FEAR OF PAIN! since i'm breaking every single comfort zone i had in my life... why i back down from the job i choose... if you ask me if this job i choose is ever a mistake... i can tell you it was never a mistake... cause i realize not every people have the luxury to make mistakes repetitively... and i should know better cause i knew it since i was in Form 5... and yet now i know that It was me all along... who is keeping myself away from doing this and that... had a talk with Jack and Desmond regarding me quitting this job... due to pressure and not so impressive result... it was never anybody's fault... it was me myself keep thinking i can do it but i can't be perfect score all the time... i told them i want to do something i like instead of forcing myself to do something i hated

the calendar is getting thinner~although it was never really thick~for those table calendar clock is ticking every second and soon the year is coming to a curtain call what have i done for these past few months was remarkable i have grown up alot what i gain what i lost totally i still remember till now there is no reason for me to stop for being lazy being lazy is like a waste of time so now im picking up my shoes and get back on track it's time to set a goal for myself because i don't want to flip my calendar until the last page and realize how much i have not done should really restrict myself to the place im gonna put efforts in Interior Design Fashion Design Cheer these 3 will be my companion instead of relationship i guess as i say i will be single for sometime, a long one by the mean time, as from the beginning i'm sit near the window everyday everyday i look out i see so many different things many p

it's almost the end of the year~ WHAT?! still have 4 months till 2012~ but time flies, how soon it is we will call it a year~ by that time~ i'm officially single for a year~ YEAH?! i can't wait for cheer to resume the practices~ job is like killing myself~ totally pull the original desire of me out of my body~~ drag me away from myself~ DRAMATIC?! i'm working until 10pm today~ exactly~ i choose the job not the job choose me~ i ain't complain no more~ at least my colleague is busying with his own work~ i still have someone to accompany me~ though we were just doing the same thing~ stuck our head into the screen in precise~ listening to ayumi's "You were..." it taste the same since the day things change~ since the day i heard the song~ this week i've met up with 2 customers~ 1 potential customer~ 1 not so~ don't ask me why~ cause the world just not easy for anyone to unde