~my Story~

it was a 3 days 2 nights stay in Chiang Mai... because I have yet to explore all the place there, therefore i will be back for more of that magical place... on the first night in ChiangMai, I've dated my bunch for a dinner night out at a famous restaurant in Chiang Mai and it was exquisite... beautiful scenery in the garden, stuffing seafood and down it with ice cold beer and follow by a bunch of gossip and catch up...  (I'm blogging this part of my memory in exactly after months )  haha talk about nostalgic.. after dinner we went for a massage however, they massage parlor outside my stay are sadly full house, therefore they have no choice but to walk back their stay and stop by any potential place to indulge some good Thai Massage to ease that sore muscle... second day, we went to numerous sight and done few nice activity such as gun shooting, ATP riding, visit to Tiger Zoo and non the less temple(s) to explore. Talk about once a life time experience. That Chiang Mai is t...

Chiang Mai, a place that I've been hearing ever since. Finally, I set foot into this land that I have heard so much about. After a 14 hours train ride, greeted by the beautiful sunrise. For the first time after a long time, I can finally feel myself again. Despite people walking up and down the aisle, I greeted the couple morning and next thing you know. Captain came of the cabin came and make the bed for us and put the seats back together. Bought a coffee and sipping it. Not the best coffee but definitely enough for me to last for a while before hitting the hotel. Slowly the train arrived at the station, seeing the name Chiang Mai on the signboard at the railway station. I have arrived at my destination. After saying goodbye, I walked out of the station and hopped on a red tuk tuk head off to my hotel. This is a very peaceful place because it is so quiet on a Monday morning. No traffic and not to mention quite as well. I've chosen to stay in this hotel named Arch 39, recom...

Chiang Mai is the second place that I have visited during my Thailand retreat... I've learned that there is a train going up to Chiang Mai, having friends that will be traveling there as well, they gave me a purpose to be there... hence it opens me up to try the train... and the experience was amazing... for this train ride I choose 2 different types of seating for my round trip... shared cabin on the way up and private cube when coming back down to Bangkok... I was lucky enough that I ACTUALLY have all the space to myself for both ways... and this is freakishly amazing... I bought my ticket through 123go Asia, and the experience was pleasant... I did not do much of reading for the attached T&C because it should be about the same... and a day before my trip to Chiang Mai... I decided to visit this bar + dining place located in Chinatown called WallFlower. They split into 2 different shops. One is a bar & dining comes with a live band, whereby the other one is a cafe and...

im celebrating my birthday month (May) with a solo trip to Thailand for 9 days... despite im not really alone due to the fact that i have friends here (locally) and from KL were here attend to me whenever a friend whom accompany me from KL via Whatsapp till today i truly am appreciative to what God have placed for me along this trip knowing and believing that everything happens for a reason... so far everything does fall into places for me... maybe not to what i had imagine but definitely close enough to play the best part of my 2019 i've checked in and checked out Salil Hotel and sitting here at the mezzanine floor of this hundred over year old Hua Lamphong train station, overseeing the crowd downstairs from different country and region of Thailand... this 100 years old train station still bumping like a just born baby being the biggest transition point for the country it carries so many people with different story and background to the same point... so they can disembar...

this heart was kidnapped by someone for a really long time despite the core is here but what within was stolen perhaps not stolen it was given up willingly by myself after 5 years with SW1 Solutions, i finally bid my goodbye with them and move on to another chapter despite its hard letting it go...i have to move on, regardless cause things need to change and shall not remain at the same spot for long... with his attendance, it sets a perfect timing for me to go as well... its like everything that happens are the best and no doubt it is... disregard the arrangement was bad or good... because how do you define whats good and bad if you have neither of them... did you lost all from the bad arrangement or actually you did gain something even by the least i believe you should have gain something somewhere, depending how ignorant you are... i think there are still something in his mind that disturb him and non the less knowing him as a Capricorn, he is utterly stubborn and i fel...

if you ever ask me if i have anything that i can celebrate , actually there are tons of reason for me to be happy and content with... if you ever ask me if i am happy, i can tell you that somehow sadness covered most of my happiness many people started their life with a very "normal" format ; where there's boys and girls ; circle of life blah blah blah... instead of that format ; God decided to made a joke for me... if  God never made mistakes... i wonder what am i? a girl that traps in a male figure... fell in love with the guy that always live a normal life... I wanted the same as well, but instead im never here nor there...  i miss that crazy night we had, dancing and hugging each other, i kissed his cheek, and of course nothing happen... i guess nothing ever will... that steamboat night that only 4 of us... my parents, him and myself... i truly appreciate that short but yet filled with warmth and basically gave me a bit of what ive been yearning for... ...

at the age of 31 i've decided to part ways with my favorite company mainly is because i've lost myself along the way within this 5 years... constantly doing things that is beyond my comprehension... instead of something that i love... living up to other's people expectation and slowly i forgotten what i love to do the most... being too confident, thought of living single and proud will be something that i can live with forever... but im afraid of being alone...but what can i do? should i live with some "temporary" companionship? that doesn't make sense at all and what happen was that i dont care because so long i enjoyed... anyhow 2019 thing has change and thing will never be the same... what presents soon become past... once loved will soon be forgotten...