**autobiography**

what will you put yourself as other than yourself...
we used to write essay saying that "jika saya sebuah kamus" Bahasa Malaysia's favorite topic...

even today they are still playing the same old song (-.-)"
cause my cousin asked for my help...

tonight...i was thinking to ask her to write herself as a teddy bear...a very cute and fluffy one...
fated to wait to be love, ending of a 50% happiness and a 50% of sadness...
a gamble of life... just like what we are doing now...
a life that filled with 50/50 always make us doubting if the next moves is right or wrong...
next step would be fatal or not...

unforeseen doubt to live in this world...make us hard to do everything correctly...
even you have the best and good intention...
but does it keep you back from doing what you are doing?
honestly I do...im scared...very...

what happen yesterday, was a nightmare to me...
a nightmare that i cannot wake up and pretend that it never happen...
i heard so many voices about him...
too many...until i doubted that way too...
because what happen it makes no sense to me...
no matter how i try to figure it out...

maybe just let it cool down 1st...
there is a crack now...and i hated crack...
because it's gonna be 50/50 that it'll won't mend...

who can i tell my doubts to...