~my Story~

KAZAKY a boy group from Ukraine... lately their fame is spreading like wild fire among the gay zone... i found them a lil hard to accept cause they wear HIGH HEELS... though to me it's norm.... and eventually it's my dream too~ and than when i saw their stunts they pull i'm like so freakishly stunt... i'm amaze with their moves...even the music they made is GAY 101...(i know i am too) but somehow they are doing this amazing job even the model at times can't even do... they litterally do the walk the walk~talk the talk~ this picture above is so unique~have some feelings within....

fi nally Blaine is attached with Kurt... though in Real life Blaine is straight himself... what's in the show just stay in the show, that's show biz when they kiss, than i realize that quite long already that i felt warmth from another lips kiss...i love kissing...cause of the feeling can never be describe... this scene appear at the latest episode which i believe will be banned on Astro as GAY is still A NONO to orang utan... hahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

*SiWon from Super Junior can you believe at year 2011~ i fall in love with these 11 dudes~ damn~ *Ronnie Woo from Los Angeles* he work as a model~damn~ *Naoto* the above hotty used to be ayumi's dancer and the below hotty is still ayumi's most popular dancer and yet the hottese among all *Shuya Mizuno** Love Love this cute handsome man below is a member of SHINEE *MinHo from SHINEE* HIS SMILE... killing me~ i guess you would know this guy~his name is Nickhun~ *hotty from 2PM* look at his face~ *.* one of the biggest crush of my life~ BIG BANG *SYEUNGRI* look at his abs~ITS LIKE DAMN~ ALSO FROM BIG BANG!!! T.O.P ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i would sell all my shoes just to have him~ warghhhhhhhhh >. below is the one i love for only one day the next day he paktoh already~AND YET I STILL LOVE HIM punya fella from SHINEE *KIMJYUNGHON* p/s : i still love you anyway~ T.T here comes the one and only ang moh that get on my list here comes *CAM GIGANDET* his eye is so alluring~its...

what can you do when your good isn't good enough... how to make perfection from a broken and retarded person... is it always a failed attempt...when you try to get it right... and no matter how it brings you down...you just don't give up... but i'm not sure about that...especially myself...if i can keep it up... why is it so hard to please myself...when i know there isn't anything else for me to do... is it quiet is the best way to deliver a message? is it keep it to yourself will make everyone happy even when it is wrong? but that can never be me... because it will never be taken in by you... if i just keep it quiet...

r ecently just work and outing... i live a life...a busy life no denial at all... the other day he text me a message follow up with a call~crying from the other side of the phone... saying how much he miss me and regret...and wish to turn back times... but sadly... my heart hurts too...but i would never patch back with him... 3months has gone... im glad that i've made an impact in his life... that means i love him the right way but never appreciated at the end... that's why the end was drawn... KENA SAMAN... i realize that these fella damn good with speed trap but darn sucks in catching thieves... why are they so DUMB? dear customer because of you, me and my colleague get a slice of dry beef ... NO thank you very much! recently knew a guy or 2 online~haven't meet~have this strange desire to know one of them... BUT when i tell it to my friend... they gave me this awesome look... AWESOME... please put a bracket on it... he is high profile... but a gentlemen... he might be a g...

what makes a diva? CAN I BE A DIVA? CAN YOU BE A DIVA? what does it takes to become a diva? i have no idea what to do... i guess there isn't any formula for it just you and yourself walking down the runway~

DEAL!! haha finally after 4months and 4 days in this company finally I've score a kitchen deal!! at cost around RM30k and yet more to come... will commit my 100% concentration now to bring this kitchen flawlessly to the customer... thank you for being so much faithful in me~ i will do my best to fulfilled your dream kitchen~ haha~ but when is my dream get fulfilled than? things can never go back to the same~ but let's just hope that tomorrow would be better than what we have pass by yesterday~

*what to compare when there is nothing to compare at all?* i hate to look into my weakness because all my weakness is debate of life... ENDLESS always a topic~an issue that involves too many pros and cons, that makes people confuse whether which side they should take, even myself have problem finding that border line... is it my fault? for being so complicated when i always label myself as someone simple... what makes simple simple? what makes complicate complicated? why compare if you want simple? and just accept it instead... but i just realize i do change...and i care bout what have changed me... i compare...i always compare...because i always wanted to be the best...so i can help myself and everyone else... i jealous~a lot...over something people have and i don't... just only at the appearance... i always fight with my own to get better looking...look up to someone else and compare why i'm not him or her? but i realize what to compare, when i can never be you and you can ne...

when you are SAD...the off day no loner cater to anyone but yourself...definitely enough to walk the whole KL as if there is nobody business... APPARENTLY.... my life is always overwhelm with friends and family "suddenly occasion" such car service...go here and there for family..."the husband" admitted to hospital due to food poisoning...and visited a friend that's CURRENTLY part-timing in 1utama... WOW... a day fully booked with stuff...recently, really have nothing much to do but concentrate in my career...always planning to strikes~nuff saying... if can one day~i would just off my hp and go out the whole day without anyone calling me... just do whatever i want... don't get me wrong...im not emo over stuff... just seeking for someway to get what im doing and make it right~ currently obsess with this model from L.A - Ronnie Woo