**only a human**

people telling me how i need to grow...

did anyone listen to how do i want to grow up...

darkness is consuming my spirit slowly...silently and so deadly...

i can feel im dying out...like a candle light in the wind...

struggle over something that i can barely win...

people telling me how to grow strong....saying human filled with so many possibilities...

we can break so many boundary and so on but too many at a time....

i cant handle it...

and ive been pushing towards the edge as we speak...

and im not happy with where im standing now...

but i need to stand up to in regardless....

i can do it

thats what i want to tell myself but how....

im so tired

im so sad....

im very sad now,,,,so so sad....

i dont know what sadness is it that bothering me....

i cant help it....

i just wanna get through it...

i need someone to help me now....

pray?

to whom should i pray to??

who can help? im in pain...that stone on my chest is killing me...

suffocating me

i cant breath freely....

i cant believe im standing here ....

so helpless....

so despair....