**rock bottom**

have you ever felt your heart sank down to an extend whereby you felt there will never be a bounce back?

have you ever felt that trying so hard and turns out nothing?

have you ever felt that the reality has always been a bitch and as a big bitch yourself you cant BITCH SLAP those sucky faith that has fated for you?

unfair right? those game that so call given by God...

there are too many why why why where no answer is ready for you and never will
cause at times yourself is the answer where you seems to forgot...
the way out is we work the way out~
if we dont there is no way out...

Cheer team now is going through a huge storm where i dont know what to do
all i though is to run away till the storm is over
or
i keep praying that it will all be back to normal once my eye is open from sleep

but heck
never will and wont be...

i wish to drop them a letter...a letter that maybe be offensive or maybe enlighten~
i dont see why people need to listen to me... when im nobody well not that nobody...
just i want to be that somebody that can be there for somebody...
i always believe we speaks better when it comes from the heart...
but than how many people accepting it...
who is to blame when we all like pretty things and believe in things that is so surreal?

does the reality push us too much whereby people have no where to run but to those fake sanctuary that built by them and cursing from the back? thats so pathetic bah...

on top of that, i really angry with those people that is born fuckingly good looking and yet they say they are not!

that is so fucking FAKE~ well i told them before~so what the heck

when something is falling and you leave that means you are not strong to bring up what you have on your own and will always be an ivy curl up to whatever~so youre independent and strong? YOU SAY?

HON thats so not strong, what do you mean by if that place is not gonna let you proceed your passion you leave the place? true but come on! its a team game in cheer~you will have to offer the team what you have not the team offer what you need! HELLO we gave you a team! we gave you a family and you were welcomed without audition~ we need you lead us to sth not throw us away~

but i have no place to blame cause i was a lil reckless...