**in your eyes**

it was like forever since i last step into a club
i love dancing even born with that (>.<)

so than again last Friday a bunch of us went to Vertigo at garden and have a lil night out
since we needed that to Celebrate Hannah's Birthday 

exactly a few of us girls from Bullets Hannah Jolene and Kylie as for dude Johnathan KimYoong Marcus Ron (kylie's bf) and "virgin" KengXin

so other than the happy dancing would be the drunk drama of out poor boy KengXin 

Well skip how he puke and how he totally drunk (>.<) 

he was sent to my house for me to look over as he is too drunk to go home
a lot of hustle and bustle to actually get him to my place 

Finally he is here at my place on my bed... KimYoong and i help him change and all, so what happen next is well i clean him up with towel and all
took care of him the whole night while he is comfortably sleeping and blowing bubbles ~.~

i look at him sitting beside him...just so he wont puke and choke himself
than i ask myself why is that im doing all these when he will never know nor gonna have feelings for what i did... 
even i can be so motherly as everyone praise but he wont see it nor gonna know about it
just that,
seeing him like that i just felt i need to do so...

haha to be honest 
i thought i can kiss him on his lips...
but than again i cant do that...
because i just cant 
that would be like rapist?! perhaps? closely?

it's just meaningless
so i just pad him on his head

why is it have to be this way
when what you want is never what you get
is this the reason of my life being here?
by not getting what i want?

just because of that
i will never be that princess in your eyes~

my wish is just simple
i wanted to be treated as a princess
not every day...just one day perhaps?

someone will just take care off me?
let me depend on him and worry less for one day~
from morning he will bring me to here and there do what i want to do and he will 
stay beside me to do so...
just one day 

i need no kisses nor holding hands or what
just a shoulder and a hug will do
at least that moment i will remember till the end

how ironic life can be?
how funny is that?

with all i can~i want the people to love them just like i would...

image from : http://imgur.com/gallery/41mbP

i will tear but no hatred but the best wishes