**darkness**

posting this post right on 3.52am~
recently i sleep oh so late~around 4~i don't know why i keep myself up till so late~
for what purpose i'm doing it?

i have not much and idea why i even need to be awake till so late~
recently phil disappear at night~i wonder why every time he reaches home he will disappear~
not once but many many times~
all he can say that he is sleepy and fall asleep every time he lye down on his bed~
i would accept it if it was just for once or twice but everyday?
i wonder why~
he will complain to me saying that~i've been standing there the whole day doing customer's hair
it's not 1 or 2 minutes deal but up to 5 or 6 hours~
nevertheless i know~
i shouldn't have doubted that~

but frequent does make thing suspicious..
no matter how hard i tried to stop thinking like that~

recently i have known quite a few new friends regardless it's on facebook or games~
i felt more alive when i have something or someone to hang out with~
i'm afraid of being alone~
every time he disappear~these people is who i can hang out with (so called)

slowly~im numb even today he disappear~
the only time he will not disappear~would be the time he is with me~

but what is the use?

im liek the drowning moon~alone in the dark~