~my Story~

have you ever feel like there is a song so serene and manage to make your emotion sway like ocean waves...padding those shore yet strong but gently it sweep you by... so  i wish to share you this song so 4 days till c3 competition... i actually twisted my ankle~ LOVELY ISNT IT~ this time it's pretty serious though~ so i shall pray really hard that it will recover fast cause this month i am really really busy! no joking!

i can taste the change of my emotion so much... to the extend that i have feelings than i might go insane or a snap... i might lost not only myself but everything.. when you are happy when you are sad how do you overcome those sadness in your life? how do you overcome those hurtfulness and move on? i choose to replay those happiest moment and remind me how happy i can get when im happy and hopefully that can help me move on from there without any scars on me but what is that putting my emotion into such deep sorrow  because im forcing myself to go back to place where i no longer felt happy with my job plays a big role cause i spend more time there now than in my house i spent my time to a company that doesn't pay my worth while its a business  perhaps throwing much emotion into it is a dumb choice i will get out of there once im through with the project in hand im gonna have to treat the up coming project as a test  an exam for my graduation i shall...

have you ever felt your heart sank down to an extend whereby you felt there will never be a bounce back? have you ever felt that trying so hard and turns out nothing? have you ever felt that the reality has always been a bitch and as a big bitch yourself you cant BITCH SLAP those sucky faith that has fated for you? unfair right? those game that so call given by God... there are too many why why why where no answer is ready for you and never will cause at times yourself is the answer where you seems to forgot... the way out is we work the way out~ if we dont there is no way out... Cheer team now is going through a huge storm where i dont know what to do all i though is to run away till the storm is over or i keep praying that it will all be back to normal once my eye is open from sleep but heck never will and wont be... i wish to drop them a letter...a letter that maybe be offensive or maybe enlighten~ i dont see why people need to listen to me... when im nobody we...