~my Story~

posting this post right on 3.52am~ recently i sleep oh so late~around 4~i don't know why i keep myself up till so late~ for what purpose i'm doing it? i have not much and idea why i even need to be awake till so late~ recently phil disappear at night~i wonder why every time he reaches home he will disappear~ not once but many many times~ all he can say that he is sleepy and fall asleep every time he lye down on his bed~ i would accept it if it was just for once or twice but everyday? i wonder why~ he will complain to me saying that~i've been standing there the whole day doing customer's hair it's not 1 or 2 minutes deal but up to 5 or 6 hours~ nevertheless i know~ i shouldn't have doubted that~ but frequent does make thing suspicious.. no matter how hard i tried to stop thinking like that~ recently i have known quite a few new friends regardless it's on facebook or games~ i felt more alive when i have something or someone to hang out with~ i'm afraid of ...

don't worry nothing is really wrong at the moment in my life~ within this month i'm gonna say goodbye to everyone that live and stay with me together for the past 4 years~some people would think that it's not long~but if you calculate it in a way detail manner~ you actually know that it has been a while~ i'm not much a cry baby~ unless it is really really sad or touching~ saying NO and GOODBYE is not my forte~i know myself~cause deny or reject something negative~ i just don't like it~it came so natural to me that i wish that everything can be as beautiful and harmony the it is regardless it might be a little too sloppy and boring who cares? i just hope that seeing there smiley face every day~ time is flying so fast and soon i'm heading into adulthood~ i know i'm not ready~but no one will wait for you! these days i'm still living in my memory~ having each one of you flashing through my mind regardless we are close or not... if i love you or make you in ...

I'm counting down each day to remind myself of how close am i to being a full adult~ where the responsibility of adulthood would finally commence on me... parents of me and my friends start wining us about when are you going to work ah blah and blah ah ah~ but the same thing we told them together is~ "We Would Like To Wait Until We Get The Certificate, Then We Will Be Job Hunting" mom...dad.. HELLO we are going to work~ i know exactly how you feel~it's like me playing online game~ or any games~it's like can't wait to score or over come another level~ or maybe like football~waiting for us to go to work SO YOU CAN SCREAM GOAL~ MOM...DAD...PLEASE I KNOW... IT'S GOING TO BE MY ENTIRE LIFE CATER MYSELF TO THE JOB THAT I LOVE SO MUCH UNTIL I RETIRE~ after making clear of my plan and statements FINALLY i get no bugging from my parents~ AMITABHA~ working at The Choice makes new friend and we are all about fun and FUN~ at the very least i don't fell so distance...