~my Story~

people telling me how i need to grow... did anyone listen to how do i want to grow up... darkness is consuming my spirit slowly...silently and so deadly... i can feel im dying out...like a candle light in the wind... struggle over something that i can barely win... people telling me how to grow strong....saying human filled with so many possibilities... we can break so many boundary and so on but too many at a time.... i cant handle it... and ive been pushing towards the edge as we speak... and im not happy with where im standing now... but i need to stand up to in regardless.... i can do it thats what i want to tell myself but how.... im so tired im so sad.... im very sad now,,,,so so sad.... i dont know what sadness is it that bothering me.... i cant help it.... i just wanna get through it... i need someone to help me now.... pray? to whom should i pray to?? who can help? im in pain...that stone on my chest is killing me...