~my Story~

those hatred that plant into my heart for so many years... i thought i can banished them... but i was wrong... it was just hidden away by my strong will... but it's collapsing as years gone by... without me knowing... i never want a person die before... but when i wanted that to happened to somebody... i can't believe that he is the person though last time i said that this sorta people is better dead... maybe you will say im being shallow whatever i will repay you in a way that you can never imagine... a way that you will regret for the rest of your life... listening to Ayumi's new album song... realize she tried a lot whole new aria..and music direction is like so magically a lot of style... a few song caught attention Eyes,Smoke,Magic is so Burlesque... but her English she needs to work extra hard to shook off those Japanese Accent cause MY AH QUEEN IT'S A BIT ANNOYING... but still love you 101 i will gambateh de la...

  my new haircut would be similar to this pixie cut done by ASHLEY SIMPSON not the color though  haha    ayumi hamasaki is releasing her 13th album on 21st March PARTY QUEEN damn!

A CLASS SINGER with INSPIRING SONGS AND ARIA - ADELE~ can made you think a lot about your past and present and even your future at times... i hate chasing those uncertainty in my future... i love and hate chasing those what happened... i hate not knowing what can i do now... A CLASS SINGER with LOVELY SONGS AND STORY - AYUMI HAMASAKI made you appreciate everyone that occurs to your heart and exist in you heart with warmth and memories... i hate that i have to love you when i know i shouldn't... i love and hate those moments we share was so fine and sweet... i hate for not be able to see you everyday... but yet i love the way you don't know that you are so beautiful to me... A CLASS MOVIE with DIFFERENT PEOPLE DIFFERENT LIFE BUT UNDER THE SAME MOMENT- VALENTINES DAY a movie that came out last year but on air this year in HBO... i hate to watch it alone i love and hate those sweet moment that trigger my memories i i hate not to b...

my first post in Feb~ it has been a while  yesterday is really a long time sweet from the very last time i felt warmth from another person most important of all it's something i cherish for sometimes... we (bullets) went roller blade last night at Subang Avenue... that's literally a dead mall cause really isnt much over there but they have quite roller blading spot there if you ask me~Disco Roller Blading is something new haha especially for noob like me... 1st thing 1st i heard a lot of people saying that how not fair the world has gone as all the cute handsome guys mostly 80 percent is gay but straight guys rarely looks hotter than them well true cause we know how to dress to impress behave to impress but than again eventhough thats whats going on but eventually all those honest kind responsible guys stay over there where you can blossom to a happy ending with that's why i felt way secure hang out with the straight guys at time as ...

**HEY BEAUTIFUL BOY~LET ME LOVE YOU~RIGHT NOW** hehe this song sing by WONDERGIRLS  and after look at the lyrics i'm like WOW!! should have look at it earlier  cause  it is like TOUGH BITCH 101~ hehe be tough~ray be tough~ hehe TEEHEE  this song makes me wanna learn POLEDANCE so badly~ i will learn that right after i get a stable job~ OH JOB OH JOB!! WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU!! BLOODY HELL~ LYRICS & TRANSLATION Hey beautiful boy Let me love you Right now, right now, right now, right now Honestly, I dreamed about you again today (So real) In the dream , you were sweeter than anyone else (So sweet yeah) On your wet lips, kiss You caressed my cheeks So flying – I want to fall asleep again baby * I see you once, twice, and I keep on missing you Boy I wanna nana nanana don’t you wanna nanana na I miss you and I want to hug you and I wanna make you only mine Boy I wanna nana nanana don’t yo...

" I have died everyday waiting for you   Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a Thousand years   I'll love you for a Thousand more"     the very 1st time i heard this song i was not amaze or attracted to it but as time goes by i kept listening to it somehow i fall in love with it more and more especially after that day... feeling can grow stronger when you been trough something even life  you will learn something after encounter the worst but  trust me im stranded in this very moment trap in a situation where i felt the window and door is seal shut  and the space is drown by problem and i cant find a way out again i have to scream for help eventually ABOVE MANAGEMENT DISREGARD my prayer and scream and yell or whatsoever Sunday night i killed my liver with Chivas Regael , Martell cognac and some other shit i totally drink drank drunk and guess what im not as saint as before when i was u...

** you don't know, you don't know, how beautiful you are...** ** you don't know, you don't know, how beautiful you are... ** first time i heard the song i felt kinda wrong when my queen pronounce you don't know it sounds tremendously weird but in the end i'm kinda adapt to the way she sing it plus that song really sounds peaceful and beautiful to dedicate to the person that matters anyhow Chinese New Year is in January this year in 2012  what the heck im blessed somehow as im running out of cash and CNY is where you can get cash for not doing anything from parents and relative ahaha~what a way of earning emergency money LOLZ sad much people sad much~ burnt my hand last sunday while preparing an elegant brunch consist of A SALMON manatau just woke up and still stone i hold a big fish with only a chopsticks and it loosen and drop into the hot pan filled with hot melted butter and splash on my left arm now it looks like...