~my Story~

have you ever feel like there is a song so serene and manage to make your emotion sway like ocean waves...padding those shore yet strong but gently it sweep you by... so  i wish to share you this song so 4 days till c3 competition... i actually twisted my ankle~ LOVELY ISNT IT~ this time it's pretty serious though~ so i shall pray really hard that it will recover fast cause this month i am really really busy! no joking!

i can taste the change of my emotion so much... to the extend that i have feelings than i might go insane or a snap... i might lost not only myself but everything.. when you are happy when you are sad how do you overcome those sadness in your life? how do you overcome those hurtfulness and move on? i choose to replay those happiest moment and remind me how happy i can get when im happy and hopefully that can help me move on from there without any scars on me but what is that putting my emotion into such deep sorrow  because im forcing myself to go back to place where i no longer felt happy with my job plays a big role cause i spend more time there now than in my house i spent my time to a company that doesn't pay my worth while its a business  perhaps throwing much emotion into it is a dumb choice i will get out of there once im through with the project in hand im gonna have to treat the up coming project as a test  an exam for my graduation i shall...

have you ever felt your heart sank down to an extend whereby you felt there will never be a bounce back? have you ever felt that trying so hard and turns out nothing? have you ever felt that the reality has always been a bitch and as a big bitch yourself you cant BITCH SLAP those sucky faith that has fated for you? unfair right? those game that so call given by God... there are too many why why why where no answer is ready for you and never will cause at times yourself is the answer where you seems to forgot... the way out is we work the way out~ if we dont there is no way out... Cheer team now is going through a huge storm where i dont know what to do all i though is to run away till the storm is over or i keep praying that it will all be back to normal once my eye is open from sleep but heck never will and wont be... i wish to drop them a letter...a letter that maybe be offensive or maybe enlighten~ i dont see why people need to listen to me... when im nobody we...

human feed on food to actually survive but what to feed for our soul to grow? perhaps some good songs to wake you up and get a touch of your inner soul? perhaps to travel to different corner of the world to see the actual world? perhaps some good movie with serious actor and messages? perhaps a good book? perhaps a good friend? perhaps a good family? or maybe just God and His mysterious way of working things? well we have it all in hand as we speak, to be inspire from? to learn from... So. enough with the long winded prolog,  On the 8th of June, our company trip went to Koh Samui for 4 days 3 night vacation First time ive gone further than the good old Singapore  for like 3 years back? First time i visited to a place where English and Malay nor even Chinese speaking country for a change~ totally a new and excited trip! a whole new breeze of tradition and culture shower my soul... i hope somehow i will constantly remind myself please move forward with al...

it's 26th of may where half of 2013 will be much of a passer by...soon almost there i have said goodbye to a lot of people that i care and matter to me... cause without them i wont come to this far... without them Raymond wont be Raymond by today  so im grateful to have you all here with me  Thursday night OT doesn't stop me from attending me and my college mate gathering Friday onwards i have my whole day given to Bullets All-Star Family since noon at ice skating ring ^.^ it has been a while since we have such exciting outing  When comes to night... John Lewis Marcus Leonard & Myself decided to have a final round in CC and Karaoke Session Dont ask me why, i just wanna spend sometime with someone i care and matters to me before he is migrating to LA and possibly not coming back... I never crushed on anybody at the first sight~ but he is different...although he is not the one in the end... possibly that would be the best to keep something like what...

it was like forever since i last step into a club i love dancing even born with that (>.<) so than again last Friday a bunch of us went to Vertigo at garden and have a lil night out since we needed that to Celebrate Hannah's Birthday  exactly a few of us girls from Bullets Hannah Jolene and Kylie as for dude Johnathan KimYoong Marcus Ron (kylie's bf) and "virgin" KengXin so other than the happy dancing would be the drunk drama of out poor boy KengXin  Well skip how he puke and how he totally drunk (>.<)  he was sent to my house for me to look over as he is too drunk to go home a lot of hustle and bustle to actually get him to my place  Finally he is here at my place on my bed... KimYoong and i help him change and all, so what happen next is well i clean him up with towel and all took care of him the whole night while he is comfortably sleeping and blowing bubbles ~.~ i look at him sitting beside him...just so he wont puke and choke himse...

democratic country runs by voters from the people in the country, not by illegal migration thats been plotted by any party just to secure their power, democratic country should be embracing the people's voice, not making them into your robots for your own pleasure~ democratic country should be run by people with heart to make one country a better place to live in instead of a living hell... and why are we not democratic enough?! cause the government are playing dirty tricks to win!? but why win an election but you've lost all the people's heart?! why buy yourself hallucination when you against drugs and alcohol as they will give you this temporarily happiness but eternal damage towards yourself? dear people, what is that you didnt see? what is that you didnt notice? why your pay goes less but all prices of all goods raise? why you couldnt buy a house now? as you can tell it's at rocket high?! why you complaint when all these happen and you couldn...