~my Story~

my comp is back~ even can back online at home, it gave me more reasons to love my house now~ i'm sad im worry~i wonder if the file in my D drive can be retrieve~but i swear NO MATTER HOW EXPENSIVE~i want those things back! picture and songs memories~oh god!! i wont give in!!

posting this blog all the way in Kuala Lumpur, Low Yat Plaza, Starbucks cafe... i was never a fan in doing things alone, walking alone, eating alone, not talked to anyone for almost a day... tonight will be meeting up with a friend, a new friend... expanding my network, i wish to do so...not only for the career wise, in terms of developing my own social life...i have wasted enough time, not REALLY to say wasted just a wrong investment...people that i know, they keep saying that it's good~ well it's good in a way, but definitely not all that bad... Valentine i hung out with not the less Claire the Clam Queen and Lydia the Whale Queen... it's like desperate housewives sitting in PekanLama talking about life and dramas that we usually catch on TV at night... Life... recently, insomnia attacks me...really hard to get sleep... yesterday night hang out with Ivan the Ooze, at PappaRich again catching up with his last week agenda and how he spent his valentine in embarrassing hims...

L.O.V.E love love love... Valentine is coming near...couples around should be hype with it by now with the gifts hide in the closet...those anxiousness to see what their love one would look like when they see the gift that you prepared to surprise him or her... that smile on their face shall be priceless... this year...my valentine i will end up alone...looking out from the show room and i will see the couples holding each other walking and whispering the love words into the love one ears... so they can remember the love words that shall only deliver to the one they love... even songs...they sing to their love one...so they can feel that in their heart...from one to another... its has been for so long that i'm attach...fall back to the line of "BACHOLORETTE" it's awkward still... but i will get along with it with hope that ne day i can meet the right one... i want to know you more...Mr....*seductive eyesight* wink wink *chiSin* next you will see jump down from buildin...

恭喜发财啊~各位 HAPPY CHINESE RABBIT YEAR~ well~chinese new year came and gone as usual~nothing special other than collecting ang pau~and the old folks catching up with their gossips~ it's mainly a declaration of our aging "and time to get more responsibilities" day... what a day... Johnathan Sim came to my house to celebrate this Rabbit year like last year~ welcome here honey~ other than collecting ang pau...we even send gifts to orphanage and also old folks house...i realize how bless i am not to grow up in orphanage adn have both parents with me~ i felt so bless...though they can be a lil annoying at times... you know old people with their never tired story telling and grumbling bout how you wear and act... this year is fantastic just in case you dont get it~it's FAN(read in Cantonese) tastic (swt) when people keep saying that i gain weight~it's not that pleasing to hear though you back it up by saying you look better than a twig last time... GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

if i want to say ONE word in describe all the up coming thing i have to say about.... my career~ PLEASE!!! my family~ LOVES!!! my friends~ RESPECTS!!! my colleagues~ AWESOME!!! myself~ SLIMMER or FITTER~ well Ms.Kon is back in Kay Elle went out with her and on Sunday~ Technically last Saturday and my Sunday is pure outing...from noon start and go down to the late night... Saturday was whole day in 1U~sweeping my clothes~like a twister... spent rm250 TTT (top to toe) so it's cheap after all~cause i never buy more TTT lower than rm300~i guess that's mainly because that you are poor...now~ POVERTY starting March i ain't buying anymore clothes instead I WILL SAVED MONEY FOR my trip to TAIWAN....END OF THIS YEAR~ so i will find a TAIWAN bf after all~and i will ask him to move here~LOL~ let me enjoy my dreams...don't go wake me UP!!! anyhow the whole Sunday spent it with Man Yee at Pavilion and Fahrenheit Uniqlo stuff ain't that nice also...it's like FOS...simple repe...

people i meet~people i know~is change~from little teenager turns college~ people have all grown up...even ways at looking things has change... me too...somehow... there are still something inside me remain as stubborn as i was... yesterday i saw a wonderful moonlight cross the night sky...huge half moon... the moon was so close to me for the 1st time after 22 years... something touches me inside my heart...so warm... but yet... so lonely... yesterday company was a blast...i've won the 1st runner up for the best dress of the night... the only male that won out of 5 women and 3 men...well extra RM300 for my account... at least i have some more money now~hehe~ yesterdays theme was MASQUERADE the DIAMOND MASK i made in college for KBU IAD Club finally is out for expose...and this mask brings me luck i guess... and the god watches over me above...i really wish that i can wish for more... but yet... maybe i shouldn't be so greedy... but yet... i am greedy... i know ...

if i have to say~one word to describe my feelings now~ i think i couldn't do so... i just started to work for 3 month...already i felt like 3 years of non-stop... maybe my heart was and soul was seriously damage with what happened for the past 1 month whats withe me has become part of me ~i added more and more pages of story into my story... as im walking proud down my virgin road one day...i will look back and carol my love song with a whole new aria ... ayumi again~sorry this is me~can never change~just like the way i will love the next love of mine until the day i die~ the biggest things i know is no matter how i get washed by those uncertainty i still have to be myself~cause what you are makes you an individual instead of another normy walking down the street with a POKER FACE... i say i want to be perfect but my friend says something that hits my conscious~ "perfect peoples are scary, they are faking..." O.O almost have my eyes pop out from my head~ FARNY... tomor...