~my Story~

people complain because they do not satisfy with things... people complain because they want attention... people complain because they just LOVE to complain... i complain~ you complain~ he complain~ she complain~ they complain~ we complain~ technically everybody complain maybe not monk or nun~ i also want to complain~i never complain to those people that does not concern on top of that i wont EVEN BOTHER that if you are dead or alive~if you are nobody to me i am more diva than you~you knew me the 1st day im already like this~ but i treat you good and good~makes nobody can compare~ the 1st day you come back to KL pursuing your dream and desire to be love... im here already for you... YOU MOVE IN MOVE OUT! I'M THE ONE WHO HELPED YOU TO DO SO! anyone else other than me? tell me who helped you other than me!! today! you complained to my hubby saying that YOU DISAPPOINTED AT ME CAUSE THAT DAY YOU NEED MY HELP AND I DIDN'T HELP YOU! i hate letting people down thats why i always do t...

do you believe that i actually worked for half month already? do you believe that here comes 2011? do you believe that here comes my 23 years old? do you believe that the baby girl that i used to cuddle in my arm will soon turn 10 YEARS OLD?! do you believe my mom and dad wanted to retired so much? do you believe that my bank left only rm18 after my last withdrawn? do you believe that since 2001 until now i still deeply in love with AYUMI HAMASAKI? do you believe that recently i gain weight so much when everyone see me they say! WOW! WHAT A "FLESH"!? ( damn it ) do you believe that i'm doing quotation while i hate calculation? do you believe that my relationship had reach 2 years and 4 months already? do you believe that I AM ACTUALLY ASKING YOU TO BELIEVE ME ~when i know you will OBVIOUSLY BELIEVE ? SERIOUSLY~ time flies, how many time have i used this word in my life? i have no freaking idea... since TINGFUNG BELATED BIRTHDAY DINNER~ i have been thinking about life~ re...

that day the 1st day i start to blog~is at college's laptop~ tell me about it~ today I'm kicking start at the IOI mall outlet~ at Signature Kitchen a branch out from ID Industries~ i'm so free until i can blog, msn, twit~even youtube over here! aiks~i want to do learn something, i want to do something~ is it me, the people not so welcoming over here~ but my friend says that i'm thinking too much~ when you are new~you are new~so people havent get familiar with you~and wont be so open to you~ well this is the reality part when comes to work~ yeap i hate work due to the fun that i can have is no longer there~ freedom is no more~but responsibility is here now~and i'm headache~uh~ better go find something to do~

a day till my old wing shattered and replace by a pair of new one... i'm having so many flashback i had since my primary school come to today... how many changes i have made through these many years... it's like fruited..it's here...22 years in exchange a new pair of permanent wings for you to fly till the very end of your journey...until you reach the other side... people will say it's just a job...what is the big deal that you have to make it so emotional... maybe i should put it this way...maybe you have been the same person holding same identity since you are 5 years old...till you are 22...what you have been doing is under your parents wing protection and guidance...now you are set free...to the world, can you fly? can you survive? not only what you used to be and what you used to have is change but entirely~your journey would never be the same... look beside you, is the one you see days to days still fighting with you all along your way? people that you will face ...

recently found out that every single of my post needs to come with a fancy titles... no matter for good or bad~i want thing seems emotional~as every words i put in the blog i wish my reader aka my friends feel the emotion i have now... wow~talk about emotional roller coaster... today is a great day~ ID INDUSTRIES CALL ME BACK and offer a post in their company~ so im hired~i'm no longer jobless~i will be flying towards my future in a new pair of wings... recently life going on with out much sparks but still it comes in joyful color~ i've been lucky all my life...and i really appreciate it~nevertheless my family friends and lover i have~ i will be officially granted a title~INTERIOR DESIGNER~ i'm proud to put this name on me and i will work my way up~ people will say that when you come out and work things will change your mind even your ambitious dream and goals you attempt to achieve... but i believe i'm different~ as in my believes will always be my believe~ i won't...

blogging from the ward... i hope this will be the1st but also be the last... My sis is having some gastric issue~from the window of the ward...the whole view of sunset goes into my eyes...so peaceful...so calm...im looking at it and i felt a lot~i'm anticipating to be a designer i want to be a designer! i wonder how things gonna look like from the other corner... i wonder how i would i feel when i look at something when im someone... i guess when you grow up~you will move from one spot to another spot... have you ever feel like wants to look away to far far away instead of other people's house roof top... have you ever feel that you wish to be someone so you can show to the world and yourself is actually worth living? from this sunset i feel like everyday if i manage to see this sunset after a day of hard work~ after everyday of hard work...it helps pay off for the joy of my family and lovers... i would properly be somebody more than i imagine... Claire is a 3D visualize in a...

my mood has hit a new low~tonight~ because i realize something or should i say too many things~ im stranded by the shore like a fish~struggling and gasping for air~*no whales* i guess when you stuck at home, life seems bored and dull~nonsense will break into your rationality and start cracking your mind... horrible~it is too horrifying~ it damage my relationship now~gosh!!! i realize i need my space~he need his space~i just realize if he wants to go to a club~ i should just let him go~cause within me~my wild side is running beneath my young at rage blood compare to him he is younger than me~but he was in the P world earlier than i do~ he had all the approach with clubs and other NOT TO MENTION experience more than i do~ after this~my air cond in my room spoiled for ONE WHOLE WEEK!! FUCK 2ND HAND STUFF THOUGH you have serve me well for the pass 7 years >. so bad shit MAJOR-LY cause me the HIGHness or for the seafood (*cough*whale~*cough*clam*) SLOWness IS AFRAID OF THE ROOM TEMPERATU...