**chasing down pavements of life with you**

A CLASS SINGER with INSPIRING SONGS AND ARIA - ADELE~

can made you think a lot about your past and present and even your future at times...

i hate chasing those uncertainty in my future...

i love and hate chasing those what happened...

i hate not knowing what can i do now...

A CLASS SINGER with LOVELY SONGS AND STORY - AYUMI HAMASAKI

made you appreciate everyone that occurs to your heart and exist in you heart

with warmth and memories...

i hate that i have to love you when i know i shouldn't...

i love and hate those moments we share was so fine and sweet...

i hate for not be able to see you everyday...

but yet i love the way you don't know that you are so beautiful to me...

A CLASS MOVIE with DIFFERENT PEOPLE DIFFERENT LIFE BUT UNDER THE SAME MOMENT- VALENTINES DAY

a movie that came out last year but on air this year in HBO...

i hate to watch it alone

i love and hate those sweet moment that trigger my memories

i i hate not to be able to share this movie with you along...

but yet i manage to watch NEW YEARS EVE with you that day...

**wind in the air**

my first post in Feb~

it has been a while 

yesterday is really a long time sweet from the very last time i felt warmth from another person

most important of all it's something i cherish for sometimes...

we (bullets) went roller blade last night at Subang Avenue...

that's literally a dead mall cause really isnt much over there but they have quite roller blading spot there if you ask me~Disco Roller Blading is something new haha especially for noob like me...

1st thing 1st

i heard a lot of people saying that how not fair the world has gone

as all the cute handsome guys mostly 80 percent is gay

but straight guys rarely looks hotter than them

well true cause we know how to dress to impress behave to impress

but than again eventhough thats whats going on but eventually all those honest kind responsible guys stay over there where you can blossom to a happy ending with

that's why i felt way secure hang out with the straight guys at time as there is no comparison between me and them and i have to compare to many in my kind that's why i hate going to gay club at times not only i felt timid but at the same time dont like the feeling where you have to behave and act up all~

i will always crush for straight guys cause they have more sense of humor and treat you better than the other side as they have hidden agenda behind every shits

curse me cause im a bloody hell a woman spirit trap in a dudes body~

maybe this is something stupid to rant about but all i can say im jealous that im not that person that will be able to blossom to a happy ending with...

at least till than i would enjoy this moment somehow...

he wore the shirt i gave him and looks good on him~he is skinny but have tone arms and Y shape figure that sleeve-less show off his arm so nice (hehe)

it was my first time in roller blade

after i wore my shoes he came over and help me grab my hand and he teach me 

he asked me to stand straight while he slide~i hold to his hand tight and i look at him leading me that sudden i felt nothing is sweeter than that and i blushed and im like those lil girl heart beating like dont know whose business like that  >.<

even the air taste sweet 

i can some how imprint that image in my head and i think i will draw a pic somehow~

hmph~

after that we went to yamcha suddenly he said he call me pohpoh needa bring across the street haha he hold my hand again~i know we are just playing but dumbo like him sure dunno what it means to me~

haha~since relationships is not prior for me now...

just keep it this way until than?

**me, IN**

**HEY BEAUTIFUL BOY~LET ME LOVE YOU~RIGHT NOW**

hehe this song sing by WONDERGIRLS 

and after look at the lyrics

i'm like WOW!! should have look at it earlier 

cause 

it is like TOUGH BITCH 101~ hehe be tough~ray be tough~ hehe

TEEHEE 

this song makes me wanna learn POLEDANCE so badly~

i will learn that right after i get a stable job~

OH JOB OH JOB!! WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU!!

BLOODY HELL~

LYRICS & TRANSLATION

Hey beautiful boy
Let me love you
Right now, right now, right now, right now

Honestly, I dreamed about you again today (So real)
In the dream, you were sweeter than anyone else (So sweet yeah)
On your wet lips, kiss
You caressed my cheeks
So flying – I want to fall asleep again baby

* I see you once, twice, and I keep on missing you
Boy I wanna nana nanana don’t you wanna nanana na
I miss you and I want to hug you and I wanna make you only mine
Boy I wanna nana nanana don’t you wanna nanana na

It doesn’t matter if you’re someone’s lover (don’t care)
If you want me too, that’s all that matters (all set)
I pretend not to know and touch your hand
Baby don’t you feel something
That’s right – what other words are needed?

 I see you once, twice, several times but I don’t get sick of you
Just by looking at you doesn’t satisfy me
So that no one else can look at you,
I’m gonna make you mine, only mine from now on
Be my beautiful baby Boy I wanna nanana na
Wanna be your one and only
Don’t you wanna nanana na

**a thousand years**

"I have died everyday waiting for you  

Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a Thousand years

 I'll love you for a Thousand more"

  

the very 1st time i heard this song i was not amaze or attracted to it

but as time goes by i kept listening to it somehow i fall in love with it

more and more

especially after that day...

feeling can grow stronger when you been trough something even life 

you will learn something after encounter the worst

but 

trust me im stranded in this very moment

trap in a situation where i felt the window and door is seal shut 

and the space is drown by problem and i cant find a way out

again i have to scream for help

eventually ABOVE MANAGEMENT DISREGARD

my prayer and scream and yell or whatsoever

Sunday night i killed my liver with Chivas Regael , Martell cognac and some other shit

i totally drink drank drunk and guess what im not as saint as before when i was up in GENTING

remember exactly what happened

though there are pieces of memories and i tried to gather it and i get a few picture of it

haha

when you are drunk you tend to be bold and i like drunk at times i can be bold and act up like a brad~a spoil brad as i can hardly have do so

i hugged him and im all over him kissing his scent~

i guess he is drunk too as he didn't push me away *evil smirk*

ya i think we hold hands too~

and i dance with hot JOLENE and HANNAH 

i guess the guys must be damn upset~

what can i do we are hot girls~

we meant to dance together~

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

*come back*

but i really like that scent~

so warm and secure like that fella that i like for a long long time~

why i always crush on a younger person~

to be exact i think its because he is mature and have a huge sense of humor at time

when you need some light up~

haha~what can i say? 

i easily fall in love for no good reason

WHATEVER

since im single just do whatever shit la~ *EVIL LAUGHTER FILLED THE WORLD*

i missed him much and i dreamt about him two times already within 3 days time

talk about disturbing???

you tell me than~ 

Lyrics~a Thousand year Sing by Christina Perri

Lyrics | Christina Perri lyrics - A Thousand Years lyrics