**rayray countdown LIFE from 2010 to 2011 @ dream ON **

depicting ayu's countdown concert title to be the new beginning of my year 2011...
because I sheet down the old parts of mine and go on explore the whole new myself this year...

Happy New Year...

this year i wish my family stay healthy as always~
this year i wish my friends will stay beside me all the time...
this year i hope life will be different...

cause im intend to change it~
with this pair of hands i have...
blogging from office have not much of mood~LOL
shall blog later regarding my new year resolution~

**さいご**

i get my favorite job, but i lost the things that stay with me for 2years already,
since we cannot cope, thank break up is the best way...
through put these years, people see how much i love him and help him...
how i sacrifice for him in terms physically and mentally...
but in return he have someone else even until today i ask him for truth,
HE STILL WANT TO LIE ABOUT IT!

how ironic~why my mom have to be accurate with what she sees, is it because she is now this age already thats what she gain...able to judge a person with 1 look....
my believes towards being kind and loving is kinda faded away...or im just too weak
to believe in what i should believe?

im so sad...im very sad and upset...
but there is nothing i can do...